Take something for granted

I've hosted a girl in the last weekend in my house. I thought it would be a nice experience hosting her, because her profile showed that she is a gentle, nice and sensitive girl. But it turned out to be not so pleasant as I thought.

She is nice, gentle and sensitive anyway. But the problem was that I didn't find the close feeling with her. I don't know why. Is it bcz she is too young for having many stories to tell? No, I can easily talk and guide younger people around me, or listen to their thoughts and feelings. Is it bcz she cold and not friendly? No, she is friendly enough, and also sensitive like any other girl.

So what is the problem? Finally I figured out the thing. This girl has been traveled around the world. And anywhere on the world, she receives free housing, free food, welcoming, and companion. Because she has met so many good and friendly people on her way, she thinks it's obviously that they are friendly, and they should be so. She didn't recognize the effort people made to please her - their guest. And just on the way she only take and not give anything. That's what I don't like about her. English has a very good idiom abt this: Take something for granted.

I felt a little bit not pleased during her stay because she didn't make me feel the warm-hearted feeling, or a thankful attitude toward her hosts. Then I think about myself. Do I take something for granted? Do I take my parents' care on me for granted? Do I take my friends' friendship for granted? Do I take my current house, my daily food, or what I have received on this earth for granted. If I do, I should not from this moment. After thinking so, I immediately called my mom and expressed my love on her. I sent sms to my friends just to say hi. I said thanks to god and people that gave me good things in my life.

Don't never take sthg for granted, Rosie. Be thankful to all the good and bad things you experienced.

Your wish is my command

There is a cartoon movie that is well-known by children and adults around the world: Aladdin and the magic lamp. Everyone who knows the film remembers the scene when Aladdin rubs his lamp, the big genie will appear with the smoke around and say the familiar sentence: "Your wish is my command", the same from time to time. This one many know.

But there is a fact that many may not know. That is there's a Genie for everyone of us. A Genie that every time we need, he will also appear (without the smoke around) and say: "Your wish is my command, your wish is my command."

Who is able to fulfill all your wishes, who is capable to do all the things you want, who can make your dreams come true? That Genie is noone else but YOURSELF.

You only have one life to live. You will one day leave this life. You, and you alone are the only one in charge of this life until that day comes. So LIVE YOUR LIFE, Rosie.

6th Oct 2011.

Be a good friend of yourself

I've went to a pagoda lately, a Big Buddha statue and many other small statues.
I picked up a foretell stick. Number 21 and it states: "Like a flower blossoming under the angry sun, but remains sweet and pretty. Be patient and strong. Good result will come in the near future"
I didn't believe much. But when return back to work, I realized how hard the situation is now.
I tried hard to complete my new job, which is totally new to me. But the boss didn't appreciate much.
I felt discouraged, felt unable, felt depressed and all.
But need to trust myself now. And love myself currently.

Rosie, whatever people think abt you, whatever people talk abt you or how they look at you, keep believe in yourself. Being a good friend of you, and keep more and more energy to go forward. Because if you don't love you, if you don't believe in you, noone will. Because, many other challenges are still ahead. Keep being strong and positive, whatever life pulls and pushes you, you will remain calm and happy, like a quiet pure lake.

04 - Oct 2011.

It's time for a change

Things are new and challenging. Boss doesn't think you are capable. So here are things to do
- Pay much attention into each detail of the task. It can be an important thing afterward.
- Be flexible. And realise the status asap to find the solution.
- Focus on the result, and the efficiency of the job. Not to focus on what I did.

Bosses won't care how how we'll do it. They will only care how is the result.
Try your best Rosie, you can do it and be an expert in Intel trade. Show them what you have.

Pressure of a boss

When we make mistake, boss will scold us and handle the problem. When boss make mistake, maybe noone knows to scold and handle, instead of that the company will make a big lost.

We always complain that boss's requirement is high, but if not high, we won't handle things well.

Boss calls us all the time regardless of day and night, sunday or holiday. But boss works until 3AM everyday without anyone's notice.

So think abt that and work more effectively. All are trying to make things better.

Be brave

When I have trouble, I usually talk to myself, encourage me, and cheer the spirit up. As I consider myself a good friend of me, I never feel lonely when I'm alone, because I have a friend by my side, and give me solutions, or console me.

I've cried like crazy upon the scolding of boss, thought I was lazy and slow to cause the payment and shipment delayed, and the accountant blamed me too. Though I've tried what I could to solve the problem. But another part of me is telling, be brave, be strong, god will only give harsh lessons to his brave children, so be proud of you.

I finally did all again what I could think of to reverse the situation, it's 8PM now and only me inside the office. It's not too late, in the last company, I was 10PM in the office to finish my job. But here now the headache and hunger cause me tired more.

Never mind, whatever happen, keep your head up.

Rosie, 16th Sep 2011. 

Perfection

It's difficult, it's hard, it's different.

Yes it is.

Nothing on this world is perfect, there are only people who are trying to find the perfection.

Wherever you go, you'll never get satisfied abt the job. But never stay the same place, you'll never know how wicked the world is until you step outside, Stop Complaining, and find the solution.

Don't keep banging yourself on the brick wall, jump on it, or just walk along and find the door, making sure you  slam it shut, and throw the key away.

All are experiences Rosie, be happy. :)

Finding the way to go up

In new job, keep finding more things to learn, thinking what to be the next step, what to invest into, how to become an expert, how to become successful, what skills need to sharpen, more and more.

Want to be exhausted at work and feel satisfied, want to devote all time for work and feel fulfilled, but the fact is nothing much to do in this new position, still keep envious on dynamic and active friends. How many youngsters on this planet are finding the way and keep thinking like me? And how many younger students are wondering like I have been? What I have passed, I can guide well, who I can help and who can help me?

I've just come up to an idea abt a place where people can share experience and have mentor, I can guide a younger person who is wondering abt his next step in university, and I can find my mentor who guide me the next step in my career and life. The maxim of this place can be: "Everyone needs a life mentor, being a mentor and find your mentor". Isn't it a nice idea? Who ever thought of it, let me search it around here.

Keep being positive. Things will be good only Rosie.

Time and youth

It's weekend and weekend again. Lately I feel that time is flying so quickly that if we don't rush at the max speed, we will soon get old without accomplishing anything. I'm in an illness right now. But I've tried to finish 80% of the Finance Essential course online of Harvard Samsung site, and tonight will try to do more useful things.

I've felt better recently, think and say positively, control thoughts when they come to my mind, doing things and waiting for up-coming changes. Hope things get better and better soon. Time isn't wait for anybody, it just flies, faster than the faster bird, faster than wind, pasts away even before anyone can notice. I've whispered the poem of Vietnam 20" most famous poet, Rush of Xuan Dieu.

"I want to turn out the sunlight
So the color won't fade
I want to tie wind
So the scent won't fly.
....
The spring is coming which means it's passing
The spring is still young which means it's already old
When spring is over, so do I"
(Literal translation only)

I'm afraid of the flying time, I'm afraid of the old age, I'm afraid of day passing by day, weekend by weekend. Want to do something so that my youth won't fly meaninglessly. But what to do? Now just learning, and keep finding.

Good luck Rosie. Work hard on your own way.

Positive thinking

I'm not feeling well now, having throat sore and running nose. And I can't breath. Last night I slept around only 1 hour. It's tired to feel that our health has some problems. I thought of many diseases and then made me weaker.

That was the situation when I read (again) the book Positive thinking of Trish Summerfield. This is a present for 22 yr old birthday from my brother. He told me: "Sister, your doubtful mind and your negative thoughts make things worse sometimes". So I started thinking positively. In a morning jogging lately, I also thought that if all the people think negatively, the thoughts will release to the atmosphere, the universe and thus make it a not so green globe. So look at things totally and focus on the good facets. Think of what I can control. Don't think abt unnecessary things and things that I can't manage.

Abt my articles. I haven't written anything recently. That is because I think I'm lacking of living experience. So all what I write will be entirely theory. It's not interesting for my readers. I need to open up my eyes and relations, participating in more activities. That's how things will go smoothly. I've read a blog of Tam Phan, a new emerging blogger. Her writing is nothing special but humorous jokes. She doesn't care abt literature, grammar, or academic things of a writer. She just writes wht happened to her, what she thought and reacted. And because her characteristic is strong, and she has many experiences in life, and her way of telling story is attractive, and she has her own personality. That's enough to be followed.

So I will stop for sometimes, broaden my small world, focus on things to do. And will come back, soon

With love

Rosie

Blue and green

I went back to my hometown on the Labor Day of last May (1-May). Waking up on the bus at 7AM, it was crossing the Quy Nhon - Song Cau road. And that is the best road of the whole journey. I jumped from my booked seat to the opposite, available one to admire the sea. I had no word to express the beauty. Blue sky, blue sea, white waves embracing white sandy beach. That was a very nice day with light sunshine, cottony clouds, it seemed like the sky and the sea mingled to be one, cannot distinguish which blue for sky and sea in the distant horizon. I just fell in love with the scene, open my two eyes as big as possible to enjoy and get a full and yummy feast of sight. The bus crawled up the hills, twisted along the tortuous road, and I, I just dipped in the love with my beautiful motherland, smiled with the twinkle silvery ocean, under the summer sun rays.

And then, when coming home, I was covered by the green of my mom's garden. Picking up the peanuts, dry it, and have fresh peanuts boiled in the wooden fire. Simply nice and warm feeling at home, being home, with my mom. It was a blue and green holiday.

Tonight, when thinking abt writing my feelings with the hometown beach, I went to google searching for the keyword "Quy Nhon - Song Cau beach". But the searching results were mostly about sharks in Quy Nhon beach, and some dim pictures that didn't satisfy me. I felt a little bit disappointed and sad, as such a good place like that still doesn't have any fame on Google. It came to know that there haven't been sufficient advertising for my hometown beaches. Thought I gotta do something for these beaches to soar and strive with other regional beaches like Pattaya or Bali.

This week I've been in a weekend slack, haven't done anything seriously. Not many job applications, not much time for TOEFL. It's is very hard, I mean TOEFL. But I really like it. I won't give up until I can speak and write like a native. But I have to speed it up, no time left. And I am just behind.

I'm just back from the dinner with my cousin. I was angry at her, never like homemade meals but always want to eat outside. It was a 5bucks snack with only 2 sausages and 2 chicken stick. Outrageous. Realized that the contemporary youth just wanna enjoy the convenience and comfort made by their elders. They don't know to cherish the labor accomplishments, don't know how to sting and save money. I wanna tell her abt a guy, a friend of me, who took me to a bar because I wanted to hear live music. And he ordered only one bottle of beer because he knew we wouldn't drink up two bottles. He let me eat streetside food because I wanted to do and to save money, but he told me to throw the food away when I couldn't eat. He has money, never waste a dime of it, but ready to pay for things worthy.

Judging people, but look back abt me. Even me, I also want to have the top rate salary before I make full effort for the organization's development. It's a material era, people judge each other based on vehicles, clothes, styles. But to put things to their orders, materials are out-of-body things. Car, house, money are to serve us, to have a more convenient life and just the means for us to work, to create more values, and to serve the humankind. They cannot be taken as standard to evaluate people's value. So don't be crazy because of such things.

But I want to do sthg big, sthg on my own. And I want to achieve new things of my life, but I don't have the idea. I'm helpless. I feel so bored. What I have to do to make my life more meaningful? What I need to do to make my youth worthy, so that time won't pass by uselessly?

And I still didn't find the job that I love. I don't really know wht I like now. I only know one thing: I like writing. Dream of a monday going to the office, don't feel tired and bored like now, but full of energy and enthusiasm. The fortune teller told me that I'm going to have job change. But waited and found nthg. I should apply more crazily. But when will it be true??

Anyway, keep moving, and love urself for everything u do.

It's stuck

The emotions are really difficult to grapple, I'm stuck right now. Didn't feel good and satisfied after writing the articles. I should keep things in darkness and concentrate on my work. After I wrote anything lately, the whole entry became incoherent just like rice lacking of water. It needs a little more spice, just a match to spark it up. Be patient Rosie, things will be fine. Practice it frequently, the smoothness will come back to you.

Keep moving up.

A brick for books

Two books to read this week:
1/ All I Really Need To Know I Learned in Kindergarten by Robert Fulghum
2/ It's big world and there's lots to be done by Kim Woo Choong
Good inspiration

The chances

I've taken time lately to study TOEFL, planned to take the test in the next June but it seems hard to be confident before June. Anyway, trying my best to complete it. And because of focusing on TOEFL, I left this blog dusty for a rather long time. Will update it at least once a week for my future book target.

I like to talk to people to find new ideas for my life. The conversations recently have brought me the thought that in order to succeed, you gotta be expert in your field. And you can never be expert in a field if you don't love it. There is also a proverb: "Find the job you love and you'll never have to work a day in your life." The problem is, do you know wht is the job that you really love? When asking people from other cultures the question: "Do you like your job?", I always see the bright light in their eyes: "Yes, of course, so much." But if they asked me the same question, I'd answer: "Well, I don't know, in fact, I have no idea about wht's so called the job I love." And it's not only me who's not sure abt what job I really like.

That brings me to the idea that whether there is a hole in Vnese education, students don't know what is their strength, wht is their passion. They just choose the universities that are trendy after high school, and just pick up the job that they think will get a lot of money, or worse, whtever job that come in hand, without knowing that the first job will determine their careers afterward, just like me.

Now I'm still wavering on my career, continue in supply chain or turn to another field and start from the 1st step. But there is one thing that I'm sure, I don't wanna be a purchaser for a life time. So, I'm still on the way to figure out what I really love. To give my full passion and energy for it, to become an expert, then be successful. Sometimes I imagine, if somebody ask me abt my job, I would be happy and proud to say that I'm a writer, or I'm an editor. Writing is an easy and aspiring job for me to do, I feel achieved and satisfied after writing an articles, after expressing the emotion passionately by the words as I expected. But it's only when I have the inspiration. However, I think now I can't live with my writing, I gotta do other job to earn my living. I'm dreaming that one day I can have somebody to lean on, and just spend the day to write things, and get a little money on it. I don't need much money anyway. But it will be nicer to be a professional as well as a writer like Ngo Thi Giang Uyen or Duong Thuy. They are the model of women that I'm moving toward. So now my targets: TOEFL/ NEW JOB THAT I LOVE/ ONE ENTRY EACH WEEK. Expected to be finished within August.

I've found a job on April as I planned. Now searching to have the job that I love within May or June. End this article with the statement from Julie Andrew that I heard yesterday on CNN: "The chances will come when you least expect it. So do your homework, be prepared for it. You'll succeed." Many chances passed by my life just because I was not ready to catch them. Won't I let it go like this for the rest of my life? Get ready, Rosie.

15-May, 2011

Dreaming

It's been so long since I last wrote a blog. Words fly in my mind, but I can't capture it into passages. The whole article seems to be incoherent and lacked of feelings. But I'm ok with it. Hope things will go better.

The idea of "Everyone can fly" flashed in my mind long time ago. I did arrange and said it out in a late night. But didn't write it, now guess it's not good as the beginning, when my emotions were full of that. It occurred to me after I realized that actually, when we are on what we thought to be heaven, it turns out to be that's it's not the real heaven. The feeling when we dream abt something, and when we execute the plan to achieve it, that's the best part of the whole journey. Seeing a plane soaring in the blue sky, is just like the feeling when I was in Penang, nicknamed as Pearl of  The Orient. At the entrance of the island, I saw a very beautiful bridge, and I told to myself that I gotta go to that bridge. But when coming back to the mainland, crossing the bridge, the feeling was not that wonderful. So that's it, when we see something from the far distance, and we dream about it, that is the best time, just enjoy it. The truth is nowhere else is heaven, it's here, this place, now, at the moment.

It also made me figure out, after reviewing some chapters of my life, that what I dreamed before, I get it for now. I dreamed abt a quiet life in a small room, with fresh air, trees, birds and dogs around in a blog 2years ago, now I have it. In a dream, I speaked English in my daily life, now I'm doing. And I dreamed abt a strong and healthy life, now I have it. But we will even not realize that we are having what we dreamed in the past, and we keep dreaming about something else without enjoying the current moment. Just take a pause to look at your life, isn't it what you ever wanted? What else do you need to feel happy?

The truth is, we will get what we really want. Don't you believe it? When you want something so badly, all of your thoughts, your saying, your actions are toward it. And you keep yourself moving to what you want. Finally you get it. As said in my favorite book, The Alchemist, "When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it". 

Right now I'm asking myself, what I am dreaming now. A favorite and thrive job (career), a master degree in England, a book of myself, a and happy family with reliable husband and lovely children, and a small business. Of course, it takes time to do, and as Budha said: "Big success and big happiness require a high price". I gotta pay for that, and am going to work hard for that.

Dream, babe, dream. Imagine as the best you can. You will have what you desire. God will give you what you need.

"Rosie, come with me.

Close your eyes, and dream."

(Rosie's Lullaby - Norah Jones)

Rosie's secret corner

My small corner on Blogger.
Where hides my real feelings behind each article.
Where shares my emotion of the weakest moments.
Where I can freely write my craziest ideas.

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