Behavior

Sometimes we cannot please all the people we've met in our lives. But sometimes we feel really shock to know how some people are not pleased with us. What did we do? Why do they hate us so badly? We wonder. Then we realized some of our small small careless behaviors previously made the bad impression. And from time to time, if we didn't do anything to correct the impression, things get worst. And they become our enemies without intention.

I'm basically not a widely favorite character. Some may hate me much, some may like me much. Despite what I've done or not done for them. I accept it as a part of my life. And don't try to hide myself from my real personality. It's just a part of me. So I have been rude to the people I didn't like, and have been careless to some, have been strict and irritable when things didn't go right. Suffering to be nice for what when we cannot please the whole world after all?

But by chance I discovered that how a small gesture or action can affect our lives afterward. Therefore, we must do correctly from the first step, in everything, yes, everything. Especially for the things involve human. We can fix machine or system later if it's wrong. But for human, its very difficult to change, make them think differently afterward. We may not do the job perfectly, not all the people know. But if you are not a friendly person, all the people know and get away from you.

Realized how far life has push me around. How much I have changed since the day I left the old house in the grass. Being more successful, being wealthier, but also greedier. Life changed, people come and go. I'm not and should not be that little girl that put her heart in her mouth. More calm and discreet. Respect and cherish every person come to my life. And get back to my root, and the basic principles of life, before the world throw me a bigger stone. Being kind, being hearty, being good, to myself and to the world. Back to the basis, Rosie.

Red

Listen to her, I mean, Taylor Swift, as I am now.
See how intelligent she is, hah. Every small normal feeling is turned into the soft and soothing tone. Adding to her used-to-be-super gentle music now are some electronic notes that make the songs very catchy. Good job girl.
Reading Where rainbow ends last weekend for just 8 hours. Also noticed how small small feelings were conveyed in the book so subtly to create the empathy. After finishing, all I could say was: "Damn, why not write like that". Saw that she was in a music band, a tv program producer, and obtaining a degree in journalism before starting her first book, PS. I love you at the age of 21.
Amelia Earhart, the first woman to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean. She was afraid of the thunder when she was small. But when she grew up she rode on the biggest winds and waves to catch her dreams. How brave she was. She established a flying school and inspired the girls who wanted to become a pilot. She wrote books about flying, she got a medal from the US president and got lost on her way conquering the new route. What a life.
I've been struggling with myself lately. Just wish that I have enough strength, courage and patience to start up a new chapter in my life.
Do your best Rosie. You won't have your 25th age another time.