Love yourself

(For a friend who is having a broken heart)

Hey dear

Remember the time when you were up all night long, tears in your eyes, pain in your heart, thinking about the one who made you swept. Remember when everything you thought of waking up in the morning is the one. Remember the time when you almost couldn't have anything tasty in your mouth 'coz every dish reminded you of that one, and you couldn't feel the taste of the dish and you just wanted to throw up. Everything around you reminded you of the one, the corner when you had walked together hands in hands, the street when he told you to shout out loud, the restaurant you both loved, the placed the one gave you that sweet kiss, and many many things else, and your head just always spin around. And you just couldn't stop crying.

My dear.

Seeing you like this just make me so bad, and I can't stop hugging you. I've been there, and I understand your pain. And whenever you need, just let me know, I'll be with you. But no, I won't let you have more than 7 notes to moan about the one, we won't be. I will just let you have some time to let your heart cries out. And then no more. I will tell you about the movie about life that I love, about the little silly birds quarreling in my yard every morning. And you're gonna tell me about your little favorite thing, "Raindrop on roses and whiskers on kittens. Or bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens. Brown paper packages tied up with strings". And here you go, off you go, feeling better now?

My lovely dear.

Please, please, please stop thinking about the one. And start loving yourself. While you're crying your heart out and sleepless and in anorexia, what is he or she doing? Sleeping in peace, enjoying life, or laughing off leaving a fool like you. Yeah it's you, everyone is a fool in love. But don't be a fool for so long. Love yourself as you are the only person on earth who is fully responsible of your own life. If you don't love yourself, then who else will do it? Give your heart a break, and give yourself sometimes to be friend with yourself.

I've been there, my dear. And I'm still alive, doing fine. You will be fine too my dear. As long as you start loving yourself, think about your need, your feeling, your future with or without the one. What the hell, you'll be doing alright.

Love.

Got lost and got back again

Hey diary

How are you? Good? Nice to hear so. Me? Fine fine, yeah, just fine.

Yeah diary, I got lost. But not got lost in the PR things and felt myself more important than real, or feeling like a super star and having big ego. No, I got lost on the way up.

The thing is there are so many books releasing at the same time with mine. And these books were PR and sold really really well.

And that's where I got lost. In envy.

I was worried that my book wouldn't be known by many people. That it would lose its game in competing with others. That I wouldn't have a good book launch event. And many other things.

But when you get lost, that's when you should get back to the root.

And the root is my friends.

The younger friend who helped me for the book launch: "No sister, book launch should be fun. You're writing because it's fun. You're doing this for fun. So relax and be happy. All iz well"

My best friend: "Well, at the first time you have defined yourself different from other writers. You have chose quality not quantity. You have been different on this road. That's how you made your book. Differently, uniquely, and approaching a niche market but not mass market. Like Le Cat Trong Ly. She is not the best known artist, and her music is different, and a bit weird. But you see, how she gained her fans and her fame. No need to be the most famous one. You just need to be yourself. Stick to what you chose".

My friend in Ha Noi: "I'm no longer interested in travel books and travel writing. But your book is different. I think it's best used for new independent travelers, it brings new values and knowledge. Many books got hot at the first time, but won't stay for long, because they don't have real values. But I believe your book was written to last. It takes time. So be patient".

So I got back, again. Being myself, and again believe in my books. Those haters will hate, just let it touches those who will love it.

I write this to remind myself about the root. I'm a slow but strong person and I reach this far anyway. So does my book. Let it be slow and firm. Let it go at its own pace.

Rosie, never forget your book's values. Never forget the reasons why you wrote it. Never forget, you wrote it with love, so be filled with love. Always.

A note to self

Hey diary

How are you?

I know I know, I've been silent for a long time. And there is no excuse for that. People say that they are busy, but one can never be busy for what he wants to do.

So I informed my book launch yesterday on my Facebook, and got a bit satisfying result. I also started my fanpage yesterday. It was a good day :).


In the next few weeks, there will be PR and marketing and advertising for my book launch. And there will be more things to release and I'm ready for the next step. Yet I don't want to get lost into these frivolous things. Before going further, I feel the need to note down something.

- Remember to keep my words straight, honest and sincere. I become who I am now as people came and supported me, so remember to treat them like friends and be grateful. I owed them that.
- Remember who I am, what my values are, and what I can give to those in need. Remember to work hard, to be humber, to serve for a higher cause.
- Remember to enjoy the moment and cherish life. Let things come and go, let only peace remains.

So, keep things simple:
- Wake up early and continue to work hard. There is no reason to stop working once I'm done with the first book writing.
-  Keep reading books for 20 pages a day.
- Keep writing 1000 words per day. See how other people start to expect from me more, so think how I can serve them more.
- Jogging is good for my health. Elizabeth Gilbert, Stephen Kings, Murakami Haruki and many more I don't know had proved how jogging and running worked for their minds and body. I need to follow the path.
- Pray and meditate. And thank god every day.


Yesterday I met a very interesting guy, a travel blogger. What he told was amazing. He had pretty awesome ideas about blogging and making a living with that. And I felt it's pretty cool if he can do that, making a network between Vietnamese travel bloggers, supporting each other, making us live comfortably from blogging, and inspiring more people to travel. So why not.

But working on ideas is always a big part. I feel people around me all are struggling to do the same thing, quit their jobs, work for themselves, living well. But very few managed to do that.

Why, the question struck me. Not working hard enough, I can say. It's non sense to say: I'm busy so I can't do that. It's a big lie. There is always time for doing anything we want.

I have worked persistently and diligently for the last six months to finish my book. And I had a full time job during that whole time. If I continue like this, I can achieve any goal I want. Otherwise, being sluggish and lazy will bring me back to the starting position.

So, next challenge coming up. Work for myself. Serve more people. Experience a bigger life.

I'm filled with love.