Hey it's me again.
It's been a while and there have been a few things happening a long the way.
I resigned finally. After so much struggle.
My direct boss tried to keep me as long as possible, 45 working days, equal to more than 2 months. I was quite angry at that as normally it's only 45 days, means 5 weeks. It's a waste of company's money and employee's time, as you know once the person doesn't want to stay, trying to keep him/her only makes things worse.
Anyway I just let it go and do what I can to make the transition as smooth as possible while still enjoy myself.
I don't feel afraid of the future or anything.
Although I know that things will change a bit or maybe I will get frustrated about what to do next and I may stumble on the way. But at the point of time I just regret only one thing: I should have left the f*cking company earlier.
Tony Hsieh walked out of Oracle just 5 months after joining as a newly graduated student. Leaving a high paid job and building his own company.
After reading his book I just realized that I prolonged my resignation for so long, much longer than I should. I've been through many days walking to the company and then walking back home like a zombie.
But I just talked to myself to try through one and one single day, thinking to overcome the challenges and hardship and not quitting so easily. And I didn't really do anything effective there. I was just simply wasting my time to get some little money to survive.
Sometimes persistence kicks back.
So to correct my words, the company is not f*cking bad, it's only f*cking bad for me.
Frankly speaking, that was once a very good company and my position was once my dream job. People felt like a family and I felt like home being there. Every weekends we would gather together and go picnic in somewhere far away from the city. Man I miss that time.
Things have changed. New people came. Departments got conflict. A lot of dispute and back talk and tiring meetings. There is no fun left. Sometimes I look back and wonder what actually happened. What actually went wrong.
Until I read Tony Hsieh's book again. It's the culture. No one there to keep the culture up. As the business gets bigger people tend to forget the core things. They tend to focus more on profit, forget to have fun and build the culture.
And I was wrong too.
There I've been working so hard to be effective. My SCM KPI was the highest among the whole region. But I forgot to communicate with people. And in the end people don't remember what I did, they only remember how I make them feel. In the end my boss doesn't remember how much I devoted my time and effort to make things well. She only remembers that I didn't talk to her much and what I didn't do and my mistakes, etc. That's a hard lesson to learn.
Applying it to my future.
Now I'm building my own business. It's not a big one, but it's growing with faithful customers.
Sometimes I got lost, got envious with others. Sometimes I got lazy, don't want to grow it.
But I have built it well up to this point. Differently, focusing on values and niche market and interaction. Sharing useful information and values and having fun together.
So I have to focus on how people feel. By applying yoga philosophy here: respecting all people and treating them all the same, regardless of age, appearance, social status or religion belief...
I have to be more friendly and accessible. Being easy to talk to and let people feel welcomed being with me.
I have to listen more, seeing the positive things in people, building up friendships and real connection.
I have to focus on the values I can bring to them. Not doing the tricky things like scandal or something to get attention.
I have to lower my ego and serve more people.
I have to make things attractive, up to the current trend so the values I bring can spread more to potential customers. Without attractive forms, values cannot go very far.
Value is what matters the most. And how we convey the messages are as much important as value.
It's been a while and there have been a few things happening a long the way.
I resigned finally. After so much struggle.
My direct boss tried to keep me as long as possible, 45 working days, equal to more than 2 months. I was quite angry at that as normally it's only 45 days, means 5 weeks. It's a waste of company's money and employee's time, as you know once the person doesn't want to stay, trying to keep him/her only makes things worse.
Anyway I just let it go and do what I can to make the transition as smooth as possible while still enjoy myself.
I don't feel afraid of the future or anything.
Although I know that things will change a bit or maybe I will get frustrated about what to do next and I may stumble on the way. But at the point of time I just regret only one thing: I should have left the f*cking company earlier.
Tony Hsieh walked out of Oracle just 5 months after joining as a newly graduated student. Leaving a high paid job and building his own company.
After reading his book I just realized that I prolonged my resignation for so long, much longer than I should. I've been through many days walking to the company and then walking back home like a zombie.
But I just talked to myself to try through one and one single day, thinking to overcome the challenges and hardship and not quitting so easily. And I didn't really do anything effective there. I was just simply wasting my time to get some little money to survive.
Sometimes persistence kicks back.
So to correct my words, the company is not f*cking bad, it's only f*cking bad for me.
Frankly speaking, that was once a very good company and my position was once my dream job. People felt like a family and I felt like home being there. Every weekends we would gather together and go picnic in somewhere far away from the city. Man I miss that time.
Things have changed. New people came. Departments got conflict. A lot of dispute and back talk and tiring meetings. There is no fun left. Sometimes I look back and wonder what actually happened. What actually went wrong.
Until I read Tony Hsieh's book again. It's the culture. No one there to keep the culture up. As the business gets bigger people tend to forget the core things. They tend to focus more on profit, forget to have fun and build the culture.
And I was wrong too.
There I've been working so hard to be effective. My SCM KPI was the highest among the whole region. But I forgot to communicate with people. And in the end people don't remember what I did, they only remember how I make them feel. In the end my boss doesn't remember how much I devoted my time and effort to make things well. She only remembers that I didn't talk to her much and what I didn't do and my mistakes, etc. That's a hard lesson to learn.
Applying it to my future.
Now I'm building my own business. It's not a big one, but it's growing with faithful customers.
Sometimes I got lost, got envious with others. Sometimes I got lazy, don't want to grow it.
But I have built it well up to this point. Differently, focusing on values and niche market and interaction. Sharing useful information and values and having fun together.
So I have to focus on how people feel. By applying yoga philosophy here: respecting all people and treating them all the same, regardless of age, appearance, social status or religion belief...
I have to be more friendly and accessible. Being easy to talk to and let people feel welcomed being with me.
I have to listen more, seeing the positive things in people, building up friendships and real connection.
I have to focus on the values I can bring to them. Not doing the tricky things like scandal or something to get attention.
I have to lower my ego and serve more people.
I have to make things attractive, up to the current trend so the values I bring can spread more to potential customers. Without attractive forms, values cannot go very far.
Value is what matters the most. And how we convey the messages are as much important as value.
