The twentysomething nursery rhyme

Found this nice rhym from Paul Angone in a cloudy morning and felt like some sun ray shinning in my heart. Wanna share it so the rhyme may shine somewhere too.

There was a young twentysomething who lived in a shoe.

She had so much debt she didn’t know what to do.

She interned and hustled, without any luck.

Now she wakes up depressed, working part-time at Starbucks.

Behavior

Sometimes we cannot please all the people we've met in our lives. But sometimes we feel really shock to know how some people are not pleased with us. What did we do? Why do they hate us so badly? We wonder. Then we realized some of our small small careless behaviors previously made the bad impression. And from time to time, if we didn't do anything to correct the impression, things get worst. And they become our enemies without intention.

I'm basically not a widely favorite character. Some may hate me much, some may like me much. Despite what I've done or not done for them. I accept it as a part of my life. And don't try to hide myself from my real personality. It's just a part of me. So I have been rude to the people I didn't like, and have been careless to some, have been strict and irritable when things didn't go right. Suffering to be nice for what when we cannot please the whole world after all?

But by chance I discovered that how a small gesture or action can affect our lives afterward. Therefore, we must do correctly from the first step, in everything, yes, everything. Especially for the things involve human. We can fix machine or system later if it's wrong. But for human, its very difficult to change, make them think differently afterward. We may not do the job perfectly, not all the people know. But if you are not a friendly person, all the people know and get away from you.

Realized how far life has push me around. How much I have changed since the day I left the old house in the grass. Being more successful, being wealthier, but also greedier. Life changed, people come and go. I'm not and should not be that little girl that put her heart in her mouth. More calm and discreet. Respect and cherish every person come to my life. And get back to my root, and the basic principles of life, before the world throw me a bigger stone. Being kind, being hearty, being good, to myself and to the world. Back to the basis, Rosie.

Red

Listen to her, I mean, Taylor Swift, as I am now.
See how intelligent she is, hah. Every small normal feeling is turned into the soft and soothing tone. Adding to her used-to-be-super gentle music now are some electronic notes that make the songs very catchy. Good job girl.
Reading Where rainbow ends last weekend for just 8 hours. Also noticed how small small feelings were conveyed in the book so subtly to create the empathy. After finishing, all I could say was: "Damn, why not write like that". Saw that she was in a music band, a tv program producer, and obtaining a degree in journalism before starting her first book, PS. I love you at the age of 21.
Amelia Earhart, the first woman to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean. She was afraid of the thunder when she was small. But when she grew up she rode on the biggest winds and waves to catch her dreams. How brave she was. She established a flying school and inspired the girls who wanted to become a pilot. She wrote books about flying, she got a medal from the US president and got lost on her way conquering the new route. What a life.
I've been struggling with myself lately. Just wish that I have enough strength, courage and patience to start up a new chapter in my life.
Do your best Rosie. You won't have your 25th age another time.

Loneliness

Sometimes fed up with the feeling of being alone. Sometimes waking up in middle of the night, just want to have someone by my side. To cover this coldness, to fulfill this emptiness.

There are billions of people on the globe. Wondering thousand of times, why we met each other, why did we are so much into each other, why we have to be together, with the peak happiness and the deepest pains, you and me, both wonder. Destiny, a whispered answer. Destiny brought us together. Will destiny another time bring our lives together? Or we just pass each other's path and will never cross again?

Another night of loneliness. Don't know how the future will be. If you're with me also I wonder will we have a small cosy family. Or again it is quarrel and dispute. Never been so confused like this.

Sometimes feel so tired of life. Try and try hard at work. Doing all the tough things, handling all the tough people, overcome all the tough tasks. All make me exhausted and just wanna hide myself in a small peaceful corner, where someone will cook for me sometimes, where someone will massage for me sometimes. Whilst most of the other time I will do all my best to bring him comfort. Just sharing and understanding, love and friendship. Thats all I need for a partner I think. But when it comes to life, I bet I need more than that. Things'll never get enough. We always want what we can't get.

Dalai Lama once said: "Its pricey to get both success and happiness". I want both of that. What to do. Energy, sweats and tears will be poured, to get a harvested crop.

Take something for granted

I've hosted a girl in the last weekend in my house. I thought it would be a nice experience hosting her, because her profile showed that she is a gentle, nice and sensitive girl. But it turned out to be not so pleasant as I thought.

She is nice, gentle and sensitive anyway. But the problem was that I didn't find the close feeling with her. I don't know why. Is it bcz she is too young for having many stories to tell? No, I can easily talk and guide younger people around me, or listen to their thoughts and feelings. Is it bcz she cold and not friendly? No, she is friendly enough, and also sensitive like any other girl.

So what is the problem? Finally I figured out the thing. This girl has been traveled around the world. And anywhere on the world, she receives free housing, free food, welcoming, and companion. Because she has met so many good and friendly people on her way, she thinks it's obviously that they are friendly, and they should be so. She didn't recognize the effort people made to please her - their guest. And just on the way she only take and not give anything. That's what I don't like about her. English has a very good idiom abt this: Take something for granted.

I felt a little bit not pleased during her stay because she didn't make me feel the warm-hearted feeling, or a thankful attitude toward her hosts. Then I think about myself. Do I take something for granted? Do I take my parents' care on me for granted? Do I take my friends' friendship for granted? Do I take my current house, my daily food, or what I have received on this earth for granted. If I do, I should not from this moment. After thinking so, I immediately called my mom and expressed my love on her. I sent sms to my friends just to say hi. I said thanks to god and people that gave me good things in my life.

Don't never take sthg for granted, Rosie. Be thankful to all the good and bad things you experienced.

Your wish is my command

There is a cartoon movie that is well-known by children and adults around the world: Aladdin and the magic lamp. Everyone who knows the film remembers the scene when Aladdin rubs his lamp, the big genie will appear with the smoke around and say the familiar sentence: "Your wish is my command", the same from time to time. This one many know.

But there is a fact that many may not know. That is there's a Genie for everyone of us. A Genie that every time we need, he will also appear (without the smoke around) and say: "Your wish is my command, your wish is my command."

Who is able to fulfill all your wishes, who is capable to do all the things you want, who can make your dreams come true? That Genie is noone else but YOURSELF.

You only have one life to live. You will one day leave this life. You, and you alone are the only one in charge of this life until that day comes. So LIVE YOUR LIFE, Rosie.

6th Oct 2011.

Be a good friend of yourself

I've went to a pagoda lately, a Big Buddha statue and many other small statues.
I picked up a foretell stick. Number 21 and it states: "Like a flower blossoming under the angry sun, but remains sweet and pretty. Be patient and strong. Good result will come in the near future"
I didn't believe much. But when return back to work, I realized how hard the situation is now.
I tried hard to complete my new job, which is totally new to me. But the boss didn't appreciate much.
I felt discouraged, felt unable, felt depressed and all.
But need to trust myself now. And love myself currently.

Rosie, whatever people think abt you, whatever people talk abt you or how they look at you, keep believe in yourself. Being a good friend of you, and keep more and more energy to go forward. Because if you don't love you, if you don't believe in you, noone will. Because, many other challenges are still ahead. Keep being strong and positive, whatever life pulls and pushes you, you will remain calm and happy, like a quiet pure lake.

04 - Oct 2011.