Sunday, 2 August 2015

August 2nd 2015

I want to note down this day. A day to remember. A day to remark.

Because it was the first day in my life that I felt so happy to stand in front of people.

I attended a seminar as a guest speaker. A small seminar, the audience were mainly high school and university students. I was there and shared my journey, my stories, my thoughts with young people. No panic, no shaking, no scare. I was able to deliver all the ideas that I had prepared, made people laugh sometimes, and said what I needed to say most of the time.

Two other speakers were also very talented. There was a girl who was famous and very experienced in public speaking, being an MC and all. I was quite nervous in the morning of that day when seeing her vlog, as I thought: "Wow, she is really a showbiz girl" and I was not sure if I would feel inferior and draw myself back in front of such people as I usually did. But it was ok. Her talk was impressive, with some techniques to draw intention and some nice jokes. But I felt proud of myself that I answered the questions better and focused right at the points that the audience wanted. And when I replied to the questions, I looked down and I saw the face of the people, with thumb up signs and happy faces, I just knew that I did a good job.

It's not because that the other speakers were not good. They were very talented and their lives were full of successes. But because of that they didn't quite understand the feeling of having a boring life, of feeling fed up with the self and wanted to change. But I did. I led a boring life in my youth. I had been a quiet and normal girl, wanted to change my life but didn't know how. I was through the struggles that the audience had. I understood how they felt, what they wanted. I knew how to change, to improve, to become better and have a fuller life.

When the seminar was over, people were around me, asking more questions. I was in the middle of the crowd, seeing young faces, listening to their stories, feeling their struggles, their lost, their dreams and their thoughts. It was a good feeling. They reminded me of my youth.

And I was there, sharing my story, sharing my independent learning process, sharing my experience. The little girls nodded and their faces glowed as I spoke my heart out to them. The person who organised the seminar told me that audience was impressed with my talk. And when I went home I saw new Fb friend requests and I saw a post of a boy quoting my words, saying: best quote of the seminar. I knew my words could make changes.

It may not be a big thing for other people. But it's a big thing for me.

Because public speaking has never been my strength.

When I was in primary and secondary school, I was strong and confident, my mom was a teacher and she taught me that attitude. I went to story telling competition, I sang in the conference, and I was not nervous to stand in front of people. But in high school time, my teacher discouraged us to raise our hands in the class, maybe not his will but by his attitude. Whenever we stood up to reply to his questions, he made jokes on us and made us feel bad. I felt humiliated sometimes by his attitude. So I didn't grow the habit of standing up in front of people and speaking up my ideas.

Going to a university with full of talented and aggressive people, I then drew back to my shell and became an introvert, quiet and shy girl. During the years working in corporate world I also hardly had chance to give a public speech.

But now being an author, a health coach and a life coach wannabe, public speaking is a necessary skill for me. I want to share my thoughts, share my dreams, share my ideas to young people and inspire them to live up to their passions and aptitudes.

I have attended a presentation class from my dear young friend Vu. I was tired with the homework and felt so much pressure. But I knew I had to make it. I have big dreams and I need good tools.

Perhaps it's because of the good teacher. Perhaps because I had prepared so well for the seminar. Perhaps I was passionate with the topic. Perhaps because of all these reasons. But I had the first good seminar ever. And this is only the beginning. This is the turning point. I want to note it down. So much joy and love.

I'm so much grateful.

To teacher Vu for helping me with my presentation skill.

To em Chau for inviting me to her seminar.

To the audience that listened to me and sent me their lovely messages to share their feelings.

To life that has been so good to me, that I have the chance to live in this world as a human.

And to God that gave me my aptitude. I feel so lucky to find out my talent, to know my passion, to work and to live with it. 

So many people out there don't know what their passion is.

2 comments:

  1. Thank you for all of inspiring note. i am always better after reading it. i wish i have a chance to meet you to listen about your youth " how to change, to improve, to become better and have a fuller life" .This is one of my favorite video. I will share with you to say thank you so much chị yêu https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhFxQlDPjaY

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    1. Thank you em too for reading my posts and sharing the lovely clip. It's a pleasure and joy to know that you find inspiration through this small corner, although I didn't mean to :)). Hope we'll meet one day :)

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